FromTheSpringFarm

POEM BY MARY ELIZABETH FRYE (1905-2004)

notlew — Sat, 07 Mar 2009 01:17:39 +0000

Do not stand at my grave and weep,

I am not there, I do not sleep.

I am in a thousand winds that blow,

I am the softly falling snow.

I am the gentle showers of rain,

I am the fields of ripening grain.

I am in the morning hush,

I am in the graceful rush

Of beautiful birds in circling flight,

I am the starshine of the night.

I am in the flowers that bloom,

I am in a quiet room.

I am in the birds that sing,

I am in each lovely thing.

Do not stand at my grave and cry,

I am not there. I do not die.

SOMETHING DOESN’T FEEL RIGHT

notlew — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 01:27:19 +0000

dunno how to describe
how i'm feeling inside

a constant argh within
a deep inner sigh

that i try to ignore
by being very busy

but when i'm alone
& doing totally nothing

it rings in my mind
an annoying remnder

am i'm happy
with where i am

satisfied
with what i've achieved

at ease
with who i've become

contented
with how i'm living

at peace
with why i'm doing

is it holding me back
from living my dreams

is it prohibiting
my full potential

does it limit how much
i'll go all out

to accomplish what i
really want to do

does it get tiring
to keep on faking

a seemingly strong front
when all is crumbling

yet have to hold on
& can't just break down

cos simply afraid of
what people will think

when will i be
at my secret place

where i can let go
of all the frustrations

& just be myself
who i really am

but still be loved
& accecpted for

all my flaws & failures
hurts & imperfection

will things get better
can i breakthru

i'll try my best
hope its good enough

must not give up
everything i have

cos u & me together
are bigger than the problems

need to take control
of thounghts running wild

focus on wats good
& do it really well

build up some faith
since lost all hope

keep my eyes on
the vision ahead

not get affected by
emotional ups & downs

dunno how it'll haapen
but i will make it

who will continue to
believe in me?

NEW FSM FIGHTS A REAL FIRE..

notlew — Tue, 15 Jul 2008 01:27:21 +0000

Just came back from 2 weeks of TW youth camp.. quite enjoyed myself.. meetings atmosphere was really good.. like most of the food & drinks.. especially the 7-11s.. haha..

Other than body surfing psts.. the last camp fire was also too happening.. had fireworks.. then 1 of it was too low & went into an abandoned plot of land opposite the school& started a fire.. think was a while until we realised so spread quite a bit before we started putting it out.. used 7-9 extinguishes & several pails of water.. so exciting.. lol..

BTW.. i finally passed my fsm.. heehee

XIEXIE!

notlew — Mon, 07 Jul 2008 02:05:44 +0000

just wanna say a big thanks to everyone for the birthday gifts..

mum.. who paid for my 2 tees fm bugis..

dk.. wow in-ear phones..

wn + lsx.. super t & watch..

jc mz tp amm.. nice wallet..

al ock + everyone else who shared.. love the ca tee..

aud ministry.. pinky tee..

ewe.. great treat & ring that i still want.. haha

mc.. go through blood & pain together..

ec.. encouraging email & wow braclet n ear stud..

vo.. t shirts fm spain er..

rq.. intoxicating choc..

did i miss anyone?

thanks everyone for all your years of love + great friendship..

xie xie you ni men..

MID LIFE CRISIS?

notlew — Sat, 28 Jun 2008 01:43:52 +0000

recently the boss said that we must move on from simply carrying out instructions.. to understanding why we do those things and even offer alternatives if they may work better.. or else when we reach 30-35.. we’ll come to a place where we’ll ask ourselves what are we doing with our lives.. this is better known as mid-life crisis.. where we’ll start to question how much influence & impact we’re having on the lives of those around us..

gosh I’ve merely just turned 27.. how can I be suffering from mid life crisis already.. but if not then why does the lack of people’s wishes on my birthday affect me so much.. I’ve never bothered about my birthdays & whether people celebrate it or not in the past.. but why am I so disappointed that the ministry & some of my closer friends missed the actual day this year.. hmm I really don’t know le.. sigh really don’t like not being able to not be so emo.. but thank God that the people who are important to me have made up for it.. making the last weekend a much better one compared to the previous.. which actually ended quite well.. but this one both started n ended well.. what am I going on about.. I’m not very sure myself.. haha.. txtx (:

WHAT’S SO HAPPY ABOUT BIRTHDAYS?

notlew — Tue, 24 Jun 2008 01:36:52 +0000

the past year has been a very eventful one.. a lot of things happened.. some good & some bad.. as always it is not about getting to the destination but the journey that takes us there.. the year ahead will be a more exciting one.. with Asia Conf in Nov and many other events before that.. so let’s unite even more to work together as one..

for the past year.. the friends around me have definitely helped make the journey a more pleasant one.. recently I was telling someone that it is quite ironic how in the past.. when I was a team ic & in charge of manpower.. I found it such a struggle to get to know my team better.. but now i’ve really gotten to know some of the crew much more.. to the extent of even knowing some of their schedules which I would have felt was impossible in the past..

so i just wanna take this opportunity to thank my great friends for being around to support, encourage & motivate me to keep looking forward in this race of life.. the little things that you do like remembering and getting for me what I like (er.. especially food.. & alcohol.. lol..) means a lot to me & I really appreciate it very much.. love you all lots.. haha (: